This is so uplifting!

This was ment to be posted on Friday, October 23, 2009

Oh my goodness it all JUST clicked! My mother and father did not stay together and they even said I was traumatized. My grandma moved out when I was younger and again they said I was traumatized. My mother and her husbands relationship is a fucking mess all together. The stuff I went through and saw with my family was not healthy mentally. Abuse never helped. I have never been around a strong loving, committed, sturdy family all my childhood. It was not horrible but unhealthy yes and there is so much more to all of this but you do not need to know but this all goes farther it goes into my whole way of thinking HOLY SHIT I no joke just think my soul aged during this lifetime (I believe in reincarnation). This may sound upsetting to you but this is all great news to me because it is NOT my fault. I always blamed myself for how I thought and beat myself up over it but no it is NOT my fault. This is so uplifting. This makes perfect sense as to why I have trust issues because I could never trust my family on things as simple as love when I needed it most. Not to mention the what 4 people that cheated on me?. I can honestly say my grandma always has though. She tried to take me as a kid but my mom forbid it though my grandma technically raised me till I was 3. This is so great to have finally click I know myself so much better now!