"only exists in my memory"

So...I have come to realize I get really aggravated at night time cuz I think to much and its like UGH. I start missing old times that are over now and start wishing things were back to the old days tho the future is better and healthier (not talkin about ex) its just like even friends I dont talk to the same ones anymore really its just odd how you can share so many moments/memories/laughs with someone and its all over in the blink of an eye. I understand that is how life works. Even if its as simple as walking down the street and someone says "HI" and gives you a smile they have made there mark in your life. Its not noticeable but every contact you make with someone is a part of your life even for that moment and that is how some friendships become just a month friend, year friend, or even longer for some. You grow up, move apart, and see things in a different state of mind for those who actually grow up and live life and learn from experience. When I see my younger friend or even a sibling go though something I remember when I went through it. I will simply give them advice but if they take it (and they never do) they learn and that is what life is all about Learn Learn Learn you will be on your dieing bed and you will still learn its an amazing thing to think about. I just wanted to write this blog because I got a little upset about thinking about the past and amazing things I wish i could watch over on a projector and save it for when I am older but no they "only exist in my memory" (<--lmao TITANIC awe sad moment) but that is were it will be till it is just something I forget or is stored till something triggers it. This is getting kind of upsetting to think about so I am going to end this. Goodnight.